She wasn’t what you would call beautiful. She was just a red-haired
girl with a lot of sock. She stood behind the screen door on the
front porch, frowning at me.
"I’m Jack Ruxton " I said. "From
Ruxton’s TV. Sorry I’m late."
"That’s all right."
She was maybe seventeen or eighteen. The porch
light was on. It was about eight o’clock on a Monday night.
Looking past her, I could see through a long, broad living room,
expensively furnished, and on into a brightly lighted bedroom. A
man with iron-gray hair lay on a hospital bed under a sheet, with
his toes sticking straight up. His head was flung back as if he
were in a cramp. There was a lot of tricky-looking paraphernalia,
rubber hoses and tanks and stuff, beside the bed. A fluorescent
bedlight glared across his face. It was eerie.
"Well," I said. "TV on the blink?"
"No. That’s not what I called you for,
Mr. Ruxton."
She caught on that it was uncomfortable with the
screen door between us, gave it a shove with her knee. I backed
away on the porch. She stepped out and closed the door.
"I’m Shirley Angela," she said.
I nodded. She had on a red knitted thing, made
of one piece. It was shorts and a top, without sleeves. The top
was what I think they call a boat-neck, tight up against her throat.
The whole thing was very tight on her. Her face seemed almost childlike,
but she was no child.
She said, "Let’s go out back and talk."
"Okay."
"He’s sleeping. He only sleeps a few
minutes. It might wake him if we went in now."
"Okay."
She brushed past me and walked down the sloping
cement ramp built from the top of the porch to the front walk. There
were no steps. The ramp was for wheelchair cases. I followed her.
The hair was shoulder length, and more auburn,
close up. Her waist was extremely narrow. She walked on the balls
of her feet, throwing her hips out in back; it was there to be looked
at, and she must have known it.
"Out here, Mr. Ruxton."
I grunted, and we came around the side of the house
on a path of stepping stones. She could really do things on stepping
stones. She flipped a switch on a pine tree, and floodlights came
on out in the yard. We walked along that way, playing Indian, to
where the path ended.
She paused, but didn’t turn, and said, "There
are just the two of us living here. I have to take care of everything."
Then she moved off again.
I didn’t say anything.
The lot was a big one, maybe two hundred by three
hundred. It was wooded with Australian pine, a couple of big old
water oaks, and royal palms. You could see soft lights in a house
beyond a hedge next door. There was a sea wall down there by the
Gulf, and the moon and floodlights gleamed on the water. Three weathered
lawn chairs stood around a rusting steel-topped table that had once
been white.
"We can sit out here,"
"Okay."
We moved the chairs away from the table and sat.
I didn’t know what we were waiting for, but neither of us
said anything for a minute or two. You knew she was young, yet there
was something contained about her. She was almost serene. Her skin
was pale, almost pure white. Her face was smooth and oval, but with
high cheekbones under the velvety skin. Looking at her, you knew
it would be something to lay your hands on that soft white skin;
very smooth, like a breast, all over.
The thought did occur to me: What the hell is she
doing here alone with that old guy in the bed? And somehow I knew
it wasn’t any money problem. That’s all I thought, though.
I decided to let her carry the ball, and quit thinking how good
she looked. Grace had looked good, too, and now she had me half
nuts, the way she was acting. We had had it good and then lost it,
and now she wouldn’t let me alone and I couldn’t shake
her. It made me half sick every time I thought of Grace. I didn’t
know what the hell to do about her.
"Florida’s sure nice, nights like this,"
I said. "That’s a fine breeze. Smell the salt?"
"Mr. Ruxton. It’s really going to entail
a lot of work—what I want done."
Her voice was much like her face. It seemed kind
of flat and childish at first, until the overtones hit you.
She leaned forward and spoke earnestly.
"We have only one television set, a small
one. One of these cheap seventeen-inch portable models. It’s
just no darned good, what with those dog ears they use."
"Rabbit ears," I said. "If the set’s
any good, you should have decent reception. Of course, out here
on the beaches, you might have some interference. I’ll check
into that."
"Yes. But what we want are two large sets.
Color. One for the living room, and then I want one suspended over
his bed, so he can watch it in bed, you see?"
"Hm-m-mmm."
"He’s able to get up, of course, when
he feels well. But mostly he’s in bed, lately. It would be
best to hang it right over his head. So he could see it easily."
She leaned back and folded her hands in her lap.
"We’d pay cash, of course," she
said. "You don’t have to worry about that."
"Wasn’t worrying."
She smiled briefly.
"Think I can handle everything you want, Miss
Angela."
"And, also—a good antenna."
"Okay."
"That’s not all. I want one of these
intercom businesses set up, too. Between all of the rooms. So he
can call me whenever he needs me. Sometimes he needs me in a hurry.
His voice isn’t too strong."
"We can take care of that."
"I have no idea which brand is best. I used
to read these consumers’ reports, but I don’t keep up
anymore. Naturally, Victor—Mr. Spondell, that is—doesn’t
care, so long as everything works perfectly. He’s particular
about buying the very best, though."
"I understand."
She was a puzzler. I knew she was in her teens,
yet she had that direct and deadly poise of a woman beyond her years.
I was figuring Miss Shirley Angela was going to
help my business in her own small way. This looked like a good deal.
You’ve got to whittle every stick you get your hands on, if
you expect to be big. Your business has to be the biggest and the
best, if you expect it to pay off. That’s how it was going
to be with me. There was the new annex, and two new trucks, and
two new men. I was plenty in debt. But if you’re smart enough
to find all the angles and ride them down, you won’t drown.
In the beginning, you’ve got to scramble, and you’ve
got to ride those angles hard, every damned one of them. You don’t
let any of them throw you, not even the measliest, because every
buck adds up. Either that, or you make it big and fast some way,
and quit cold. I had learned the hard way, misfiring across a lot
of lousy years, that I would have to slug for it—slug everybody
in sight. So I was glad I’d come out here myself, instead
of sending one of the men from the shop. It had been mostly by chance,
and because Grace was hanging around again outside the store.
I decided to hold off the pitch till after we were
inside the house. From the way it looked, the guy in there wouldn’t
be any hindrance.
Things seemed a little strained, though, and I
wasn’t sure why. I kept wondering what her relationship was
to the guy in there.
"We can go in now," she said. "He’ll
be awake."
We walked back the way we had come and went into
the house. As we entered the living room she said, "I’ll
let you decide the best place for everything, Mr. Ruxton. You’ll
know best, I’m sure."
We left his room until last. She was avoiding it,
and trying every way she knew to make it look as if she wasn’t
avoiding it. I wanted to get a good look at him, and that room.
Her acting the way she did only made it worse. The room was like
a magnet.
It was a fairly large house: large living room,
three bedrooms, dinette, kitchen, three bathrooms, and a sprawling
glassed-in area they call a Florida room down here. It was so quiet
you could hear him clear his throat, or change position on the bed.
I couldn’t keep my eyes off her legs and
she knew it. We were in the kitchen when she excused herself and
came back in a minute buttoning up a yellow housecoat.
"What do you think, Mr. Ruxton?"
"Well, there’ll be a few minor difficulties
in the wiring, but we’ll iron them out. Maybe I’d better
have a look in there, now."
She turned quickly away. "All right."
We went into his bedroom.
"Victor?"
He opened his eyes and stared at me.
"Victor, this is Mr. Ruxton. He’s come
to put in the TV sets and everything. Like we talked about. He wants
to check your room."
He blinked, just once, staring at me. Those blue
eyes were really sharp. Somehow they reminded me of an eagle’s
I’d seen in a Belgian zoo. It was as if he stared at the wall
right through your head.
"Good," he said. "That’s good."
His voice wasn’t strong. He had finely drawn
features, a long nose, and heavy brows knotted with snarled gray
hair. There was a quality of stubborn arrogance in his glance, of
tired determination. The hair on his head was iron-gray, and like
barbed wire. He looked as if he were grinning, but it was only the
shape of his mouth when relaxed. He wore light gray pajamas. The
sheet was neatly drawn and folded across his chest, his hands folded
on the sheet. He was a shell, but looked as if he’d once been
as strong as an ox.
The sound of his normal breathing was bad. Something
like a horse with an advanced case of the heaves.
"Ruxton, eh?" he said, breathing like
wind in an October com field. "The only Ruxton I believe I
ever had the pleasure of becoming acquainted with was an unmitigated
ass and a dirty son of a bitch. You any relation to him?"
I watched the hands shake; big, once-powerful hands,
folded on the sheet.
"Probably," I said.
Some gut-wrung breathless sounds burst past his
lips. He was laughing. I knew then I wasn’t going to make
any pitch to her for anything. I would do my job and get out of
here. I didn’t like the guy.
"Victor," she said, moving quickly to
the side of the bed. "Please, take it easy, will you?"
"Oh, Christ," he said. He spoke with
soft pain. She glanced at me, her eyes up-flung in a show of resignation,
and began straightening his pillows.
There were oxygen tanks beside the bed, standing
upright in a nickel-steel rack with wheels and handles. A long black
coil-rubber hose and mask dangled over one side of the gleaming
handles like an eyeless python with its mouth open.
The room was antiseptically clean, neat and white.
Not even a magazine or a chair. Just the hospital-type bed and the
oxygen tanks. To the left a white-curtained window opened on the
side of the house, over the path that led out back. Another window
was at the head of the bed. Hanging on a bedpost by a black ribbon
was a small, filigreed silver bell; the kind that used to sit on
the back of the buffet at your grandmother’s house in the
long ago of your early childhood.
I stared at the ceiling over the bed, trying to
make it look as if I were doing my job. You think about hanging
TV sets on the ceiling, only you just don’t do it.
"I’ll have to check the attic rafters,"
I said.
"All right," she said.
I looked at him again. He didn’t seem too
well.
I went over to the bedroom door, and she came along,
and we stepped into the living room. The housecoat was coming unbuttoned.
She watched my eyes.
"He’s very bad off," she said.
"How do I get into the attic? You have a flashlight?"
"Yes—"
The sound reached me faintly from the bedroom.
A butterfly brushed a broken wing against the silver bell.
"Shir-LEY!"
It was Death croaking.
She gave me a quick look and hurried back into
the bedroom. I watched her. He writhed on the bed, his mouth open,
hands clenching the sheets. He was trying to breathe.
"Would you please help me?" she said.
I went in there.
"Turn that handle wide open. Yes, that’s
it."
She leaned on him, holding one arm down, and mashed
the mask over his nose and mouth and I turned it on. It was life
pumping through the rubber hose. I looked away and tried to think
of something else so I wouldn’t hear him.
In a minute or two she said, "You can turn
it off now."
I turned it off. She came around and draped the
black rubber hose over the handle. He lay there with his eyes closed.
Sweat had formed in splotches on his face and hands.
"Thanks, baby," he said. He didn’t
open his eyes.
She made a soft purring sound in her throat, and
moved to the other side of the bed, straightening the sheet. I watched
her and she looked up at me. I caught the expression on her face.
It told me a lot.
We watched each other across the bed. She knew
I’d seen what she was thinking. It was as if the bed were
suddenly empty. He just wasn’t there.
She jerked her gaze away and walked out into the
living room. I followed, seeing his feet sticking straight up under
the sheet, from the corner of my eye. I’d once done apprentice
work for an undertaker and had seen a lot of feet like that.
"Sorry you had to see him that way,"
she said.
"Forget it. Glad to help. Where’s that
flashlight?"
She went to the kitchen and returned with a five-cell
job. I stood on a chair and swung up into the attic through the
closet in her bedroom. I checked the rafters. I couldn’t get
him out of my head. He was ]ust like a corpse, only he still breathed
and he was still king.
I came back down.
"Sure," I said, handing her the flashlight.
"It won’t be too difficult, fastening a TV set to the
ceiling."
"I suppose you’re still concerned about
what happened, aren’t you, Mr. Ruxton. I shouldn’t’ve
asked you to help. I know how disturbing something like that can
be, seeing it for the first time. I just forgot, I’m so used
to it." \
I thought, Honey, you’ll never be used to
that.
She must have seen something in my eyes. She spoke
quickly. "It’s a respiratory ailment. Very complicated.
It gets more complicated all the time." She stared toward his
room. "Degeneration," she said. "He’s been
to the finest specialists in the country. Luckily, he’s very
wealthy." She looked at me again. "It’s his lungs,
his throat, bronchial tubes—and now, his heart, too. He’s—we,
that is, have lived everywhere, but he likes it here best."
"You’re his nurse, then."
"He’s my stepfather, Mr. Ruxton. But
I suppose you could say I was his nurse. I’ve been taking
care of him ever since he sold the business. He manufactured expensive
furniture. All kinds. Surely you’ve heard the name Spondell?
Very likely some of the television cabinets you sell were designed
by Victor."
His name might as well have been Xshdkgteydh, for
all I’d ever heard of him. I said, "Yeah. The name does
seem to ring a bell, at that." She didn’t speak, so I
said, "How old are you, anyway?"
She looked at me along her eyes. "Eighteen."
She paused. "He insisted I take care of him—like this."
"Shouldn’t he be in a hospital?"
She gave a little jerk with her head, and sighed.
"That’s just it. The doctors think so. And now Doctor
Miraglia claims it’s very important. Victor just tells him
’Bosh!’ and refuses to go."
"Who’s this Miraglia?"
"He’s Victor’s doctor now. Victor
won’t let anyone else come near him. He thinks Doctor Miraglia’s
the finest doctor in the world." She sighed again. "Everybody
thinks Victor should be in the hospital."
"Who’s everybody?"
"I mean, before we came here."
"What do you think?"
She smiled. It didn’t mean a thing to me,
because she’d pushed the whole business much too far. You
get to meet a lot of people, and you know how they react when you
first meet them. There was only one reason why she’d tell
me all this. Maybe two reasons, but I figured I was crazy, thinking
the other one. She said, "Let’s discuss something else.
This must be tiresome to you."
"No relatives?"
"What?"
"Him. Hasn’t he any family of his own?
I mean, other than you?"
She turned and moved to a broad cocktail table
beside a long, low pale blue couch. She laid the flashlight on the
table. "Nope," she said. "Nobody but me." She
turned and looked at me, smiling.
"Suppose I drop around tomorrow morning?"
I said. "I’ll bring some stuff along. We can decide what
you want. How’s that?"
"All right. That’s fine."
"If we started anything tonight, we’d
never get finished."
"I suppose you’re right."
We walked across the room. I stepped out onto the
front porch. I looked back at her through the screen.
"Good night, Miss Angela."
"Good night, Mr. Ruxton."
Copyright © 1958 by Gil Brewer.
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